Pain becomes Numb

The Pain its in me...

I can't take it out on anything

or anyone

i'd just hurt them

So much that...

I keep it in

everyday

In the morning

it gets drained with the music

I become numb

I can't tell anyone

Cuz when they see my face

They ask 'whats wrong, are you ok??'

'Yea i'm fine'

NO! im not

It hurts

Why cant I say it?

The words just wouldn't come out of my mouth

but when I do tell someone it hurts

they say...

'it's not good to keep it in'

'throw something'

hit something'

but I can't

I restrict myself

'but it's not good to do what you do

block it, block yourself

make yourself nimb'

its ok i'll live

hey i'm writing this

i'm alive

n i'll survive

even if I loose myself one day

but no one really cares no one will...